Why Did I Disappear?
I wasn’t in the mountains. I was just trying to stay afloat.
Hi Friends!
Yes, I’m alive. And if you’re reading this, thank you for not unsubscribing.
It’s been almost a year since the last edition of Relatively Correct. I didn’t mean to ghost you. I just… disappeared.
Not in the dramatic, drop-everything-and-go-to-the-mountains kind of way. It was quieter. Slower. The kind of disappearance that happens when life sneaks in and you lose the script for a bit.
Let’s start with the personal.
I used to think I had relationships figured out. Friendships, too. But this past year humbled the hell out of me. Some equations shifted. Others ended. And somewhere in that churn, I lost a part of myself especially in the role I once played as a husband. The identity I wore no longer fit, and I didn’t know who I was showing up as anymore.
At the same time, my mom’s health took a serious dip. Most of my time and energy went into being by her side. The days were long and heavy. No to-do lists. No milestones. Just being. One moment at a time.
Around me, life didn’t slow down. Friends were moving countries, getting engaged, separating. Somewhere along the way, my social battery died. I wasn’t the loud extrovert anymore. I wasn’t creating. I wasn’t playing sports. I was just… functioning.
Wake up. Meditate. Gym. Work. Eat. Sleep. Repeat.
I was adulting hard, but not really feeling. The spark had dimmed.
But even in that fog, I stayed aware. I gave myself permission to sit with the grief. I didn’t force a bounce-back. I let the stillness stretch. And slowly, quietly, something shifted.
Today, I’m in a steadier place. More grounded. More myself. And finally, ready to write again.
If you’re still reading this, thank you. That means more than you know.
Now, the work stuff.
Over the past year, I wore a bunch of hats. Spent seventeen months at inFeedo, from Entrepreneur-in-Residence to Head of Southeast Asia. It was intense, fast-paced, and taught me more about building GTM engines and marrying data with storytelling than any degree ever could.
I also consulted with Accops for a bit. Even explored sports marketing because hey, when life is chaos, why not lean in?
But beneath it all, the entrepreneur in me was itching to build again.
That’s when Finlens happened.
I’ve joined as a Founding Member. We’re a small, remote startup helping early-stage founders and CPA firms gain radical clarity over their finances. I lead GTM and growth—figuring out who we’re really building for, running late-night demos across time zones, shaping product narrative and strategy.
It’s scrappy, fast, and full of possibility.
It also feels like my early Platform for Artists days, except now, success is measured in retention rates, not Instagram followers.
It’s a different kind of creativity. Part gut, part spreadsheets. And I’m all in.
So yeah, that’s where I’ve been.
Grieving quiet losses. Navigating messy 30th year of my life. Starting again.
Relatively Correct is back, not with a manifesto or 10-step blueprint, but with a simple promise:
To show up. To write through the chaos and the calm.
To build something that feels like home for all of us figuring it out one day at a time.
And I want to hear from you. Drop a comment. Send a long rambling text. Or just call me. No agenda, just a friend who’ll listen.
Take care everyone.
-Pawan
Painfully beautiful. Wishing you healing and clarity
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